Where did anyone look for meaning before the internet?

Man what have I don to find myself in this possition? How many times a day to I tell myself that I have to get out of this place? I just had a friend tell me that God has me here for a reason. I dont know what to think of this. I cannot see a reason. I cannot see a purpose in the pattern of my life right now. For that matter I cannot feel or hear God much anymore. I had thought, and it made sense, that he might change the way he leads according to one's needs. There was a time when I needed direct leading, now that has changed, perhaps. Or perhaps I ignored some leading back down the line and now have gotten myself so far out of tune that I could not hear him even shouting. I wouldnt put it past myself. Never mind me, im just being dramatic.