walk the Path

I am finding that one cannot begin to think about projecting your path while not liking who one is. Or rather one cannot think about changing themselves and planning their future at the same time. When I picture myself doing things in the future, or think about what I would like to do with myself, I always see myself doing things I could not do right now. Or maybe just dont have the opportunity to do right now. ... you can probably tell i am still trying to sort things out. Lately I have felt out of sync at work. Maybe ive just hit a slump, I would imagine they come along every once in a while.

Prior to the "slump" I could see the shortcomings of what I do, often became frustrated with it, but generally things were ok. I have been trying to cut down my complaining for a while now. It seems that my heart is not in it like it used to be. I am hoping that two weeks off after Christmas will revitalize me. That may be a vain hope but it is all that keeps me going right now. Maybe i need a new angle or ..... something. ahh who knows, i will do all I can to walk the Path.